the night comes before i'm ready

// East Austin

i'd stay up all night with you

drink. laugh, play, make love with you

somewhere, somehow,

that part of me is out there

i call her name when i wake up in the middle of the darkness

but no one responds

i look over, call your name,

gently,

but you're sleeping and i can't stand to wake you

i dream of her most at night

because i feel her running

free

a wild child

it breaks me to be apart from her

but every night i wake up

while it is still dark

before i am ready

i feel her calling to me

remind me

she'll be back

as long as i keep the light on